broken hearts

A broken heart is said to mend with time
although it seems it never does.
It just goes on with it's bruises and cracks
Some things can fade with time
but the joy turned dark and troubled inside us.

What was once so vibrant and strong
took a turn somewhere that we missed
the path we were on didn't look the same
Somehow something went terribly wrong.
We lost our passion , our love we dismissed

Our roads are now different from then
We've each gone our separate ways
Our views are now just our own.
No reasons to have to agree again.
all that's left is going away.

Bonnie J Hollywood-Cutts
12-31-2011

This out out within a matter of a few minutes. So it is still rough.

still a work is progress/. 2 in one

My son both loved and missed is remember everyday.
His name was Greg, he was a big brother
and a friend to those that knew him.
He was Loved deeply by his mother.

Time flew by , he grew up too fast.
Before we knew it he was on his way
To begin a new direction in life
He found a love , with her he'd stay.

There were so many things left unsaid
So many things he wanted to do.
He was always trying to live life
trying new things and seeing them through.

Although the road got rocky  at times.
life seemed tougher than he once knew
His marriage slipped away from his grasp
leaving an emptiness knowing it was through

Then pain set in on him something new
The stress and physical drain was there
fear of the future soon set in.

***************************************************

 MEMORIES OF MY SON

My son both loved and missed is remembered everyday.

His name was Greg, he was a big brother 

and a friend to those that knew him.

He was Loved deeply by his mother.

Life seemed so unfair to him

Having  troubles with his breathing

and not being able to take long walks

but it didn't keep him from smiling

Time flew by , he grew up too fast.

Before we knew it he was on his way

To begin a new direction in life

He found a love , with her he'd stay.

Through the struggles that came along

Causing life to have unbearable days

he never  gave up but would carry on

He was able to handle it in his own ways.

*We love you son.  We miss you dearly

You were an inspiration to all you knew

you loved,  and were loved in so many ways.

We have fond memories of life with you*

 We'll all be together again someday.

                Bonnie Hollywood-Cutts

                         12-19-2011

Critical Eyes

Critical Eyes




Why must you tear me down?
Saying I’m no good or worthless.
You rob me of confidence,
And shove me around.
All my life I’ve done my best.
Why do you continually see life,
through clouded critical eyes.
Life is too short to always frown.
Try to look for the good in all you see.
Build people up instead of tearing them down.
Put on a smile, set your criticism free.


Bonnie J. Cutts 4-17-02

Taboo

TABOO


I sometimes feel as if I’m a taboo.
No matter who I love,
They all seem to become ill or die.
Sometimes I feel this way about you.


So maybe I shouldn’t love anyone.
Just live my life as a hermit.
Staying away from friends.
Then damaging pains aren’t done.


My life has always been tough.
Some things I’ve tried to forget.
Others are imprinted deep.
But now I see I’ve had more than enough.


Bonnie J. Hollywood-Cutts 8-12-94
© 2002, 2003

I will Never

I WILL NEVER ...

I Will Never Stop Loving You
Have I ever told you how I feel about you.
The feelings inside are true.
I don't know what it is.

I no longer even know the reason why.
All I know is I can't stop thinking about you.
I am sleepless in the night when all these
 thoughts come to my mind.

I can only think of what you have said.
I get all warm inside.
I have a loving feeling that will not go away.
Sometimes I just want to hide behind the curtain.
I don't want you to see me cry.

It's harder for me everytime we have to say goodbye.
I can only stand up for myself.
When my friends try to tell you how I feel.
They say I'm in love with you.
Is this real.

Why did this have to happen to me.
What did I do to deserve this.
Can you even see.
I want to tell you how I truly am.
I want to be more than just your friend.

Bonnie J Hollywood-Cutts

Winter 2011

stay

Stay


You push me away.
I pull you in.
This happens to us everyday.


I tell you to stay.
I need you here.
But you can’t live this way.


I care about you.
I love you so much.
Lean on me, I’ll see you through.


You know things don’t last.
I can assure you it will change.
This to shall become the past.




Bonnie J. Hollywood-Cutts 8-22-04 2:45p.m

Rising Up

Rising up
Rising up above it all
Look up to the light
Lest you fall


Don't give into pressure
as it tries to crush you
find the courage to endure
the things you may go through


As the directions change up ahead
the past is just a memory
Cling tight to the present instead.
and hope for the things  that can be.


Bonnie Hollywood Cutts 
7-3-2011

my own tax poem

  (My own version to the tax poem )


The government kills us everyday


They come after us till there is no more


there is no break they're here to stay.


Even if we tried to hide they'd hound us even more


this is the way they like to play.




What they tax and what they take


are things we need to live.


They tax us for every mistake we make.


then wonder why we can not give


anymore , so they tay away our breaks.




Each year they promise they wont add more


That things will get eaiser just wait and see


Then they end up worse than before


They say we're privileged, but you could've fooled me.






 extra Things they tax
 every strand of hair on our head.
every bite of food we eat
they count the times we go to bed.
they count the toes upon our feet.


Then they'll count the time we'd mow our lawn.
or if we take too long.
Calling it an enviromental tax.




I could go on forever , and the list is really long
but if I'm not careful they'll tax this too.


           Bonnie Hollywood-Cutts
               6-2-2010

Forgiveness

Forgiveness


Fixing the broken bonds of
our own making of things
ruined by hurting the gifts  
friends & life) God gave
instead of showing the value 
they can hold in our lives
efforts must be made to heal.
never just stopping half way
eventually the fruits of the labors
show and grow from sincere efforts
sin can not win unless we allow it to.


To do this we must learn 
to forgive ourselves first 
and then our neighbors.
Those that hurt us  and do it intentionally and those that 
don't even know they did.
Then take it to God.
Ask for forgiveness 
from them if you are the
one that wronged them.
Then take that to God as well. 
He is waiting to hear us 
begin .

Bonnie J. Hollywood-Cutts
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